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Who's Sad Now?

Having too much work and not enough time, I really shouldn't be updating right now, but I have some words buzzing around my head, and I figure if I update now, I can use them, and then I can work really hard for several hours before retiring to the cinema with The Sophie.

Where shall I begin?

I have been on holidays for two weeks, but not much of a holiday, by any standard! It's been work work work. I've had essays to work on, drama workshops to go to, family visits and general Do-This Do-Thatness.

I have one essay (the inevitablity, or otherwise, of the October 1917 Russian Revolution) due on Monday, first day back. I have another (why fascism has not had a lot of success in Australia in the last twenty years) due on Friday.

5500 words to write, and a shitload of research to do first, and have you ANY conception of how incrdibly dull these two subjects are?

However, I only have one more essay after that, and nearly a month to do it in. Of course, I want to finish early, so it's out of the way for THE BIG LORF MEET.

So, that's where I'm at. If you see a little (or a lot) less of me over the next week, it's not because I'm dead, it's because I'm dying.

In other news, I was playing LJ-voyeur last week, on a break, just hopping from one friend to another, and lo and behold I stumbled upon the journal of The Evil One. Most of you have heard tell of The Evil One. To protect the guilty-as-sin, this unlocked entry shall leave him anonymous.

Oh my God! Talk about angsty!!! Get OVER yourself, you miserable loser. It was like this:

"Whinge whinge, no one likes me. Whinge whinge, I'm sad. I'm a big goth and I have Problems. Whinge whinge, I hate this person. Whinge whinge, I hate that. Look how mentally disturbed I am. You can tell 'cos my journal is all black."

Now, I know my journal can be angsty, but I'd like to make a few distinctions:

1. My journal angst is primarily friends-locked. I share my problems with those I trust, I don't broadcast them on the internet, so that every voyeur can see how "disturbed" I am. I've got depression. That's not a cause for pride, and I don't want the internet-community at large to read about my problems.

2. I have many entries which are NOT angsty. I do not whinge about how miserable and disturbed I am in every bloody update. For a start, it makes for very dull reading.

3. My angst is largely self-examining. "I feel like this, now I'm going to investigate why. Here are some theories." At least that serves a functional purpose. Reading this was like reading an FYI. "Just so you know... I'm a big goth and I'm in pain."

If I ever modify my journal writing process, to the point where distinctions 1 through 3 no longer apply, then beat me round the skull with a 2x4 post-haste. No court would convict you.

It was very stimulating reading at any rate. As most of you know, my hatred for this fellow blazes hotter than the fiery depths of hell, but reading over his LJ was just hilarious! I may have been pathetic back in the 10th grade, but who's a loser now, buddy? Get over yourself.

I think this accidental experience has been very good for me. However, it also makes me determined never to stoop to that level, or even come close, so from now on, I will make every effort not to angst in my LJ unless absolutely neccessary. I don't want to come across as a big angry goth who hates the world and is oh so miserable because nobody loves me.

You can't figure out why no one likes you? Here's a tip buddy:



All: We're um... we're sensing the anger again. You don't by any chance dislike this guy, do you?

*snort* Yes, but it's hardly worth it anymore.

In other news, the Sophie has an LJ, which she IS NOT POSTING IN!!!
*shakes fist*
Everyone please leave a comment, telling her that if she doesn't start posting, she will be summarily savaged by polar bears.

My birdy, Maggie (or Magdalena, if you will) is very ill. It looked on Tuesday like she was going to die, but darn if she didn't just perk up again that afternoon. She's such a little trooper. Poor old Connie (her male companion) was very upset, and kept peering out of the cage to see what we were doing to her! Birdies is so cute! Maggie has to be checked on regularly, at any rate, to make sure she's alright. Poor thing. The vet knows squat about birds.

And now The Grandmother wishes me to go to the shops. I suppose I should oblige. It's just such a big hill!!! *curses those of you, you know who you are, who live across the street from shops*

Pip pip, ya'll. May your days be full of shiny ponies, spongecake, octogenarian hippopotami, those little triangular cheese things and buff kiwi army guys.

Best wishes to the Travelling Teapot, now safe in his mother's arms. And also a poking to emerald85. Where are you?


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Apr. 20th, 2006 04:25 am (UTC)
"Look how mentally disturbed I am. You can tell 'cos my journal is all black."

Hehe - we have an agreement on the black journal with white writing thang
(The good Galligaskins excepted)

This is somewhat of a deja-vu entry for me - what with the chance encounter with the person who really screwed with your life.


and the convenience of over the road shops cannot be said enough!
Apr. 20th, 2006 04:43 am (UTC)
When I come across black backgrounds with white writing, I go to Firefox and tell it to turn the styling off, so I can actually read it. I don't know how people with styles like that can read their friends pages without getting headaches and going cross-eyed...

But, Kayt! You are good.

Kayt: That's it?

Bunne: You want more? Greedy evil twin...

Also, the Sophie MUST start posting in her LJ.

In a further also, I think the curse bounced off me because I wasn't at home - I was across the road buying stuff from the shops.
Apr. 20th, 2006 05:01 am (UTC)
Don't be smug.

Or I shall curse you again while sleeping in my bed.


And the white writing on the black background is just cross-eye inducing. I quite like the goth-dressing, all black style, but why must it be transported to your LJ?

The good inhumelesnt is a most stylish goth, and observe the infinitely readable dark grey on white.

All this black is an attempt to say "look how miserable I am. I must be unhappy because I like to look at black all day."

A number of my flist are depression sufferers, so tell me flist:
When you're depressed, genuinely feeling really down, do you like to look at black? Or would you rather see something brightly coloured, that doesn't drag you down further?

After all, why depression sufferers get worse on overcast days.

The all black journal? Wank.

But then, we all already knew he was a wanker...
Apr. 20th, 2006 05:04 am (UTC)

Bite me!
I can't believe the first two people to comment were the very two across-road-from-shops bastards I was reffering to!!!

*shakes fist*

And Gally's journal is white on black, but cool. I think it's the artistic simplicity. The font is simple and clear. It is simply one scrolling entry. No superfluous design. Elegant is the word.

I don't object to white or black on principle, except the eye-hurting. I mostly object to the angsty nature. And the "My journal is black because I am HARDCORE!"
Apr. 20th, 2006 05:33 am (UTC)
I'm here! I have just been really busy... :S

Ohh I shall soon be living almost across from some shops! I just have to cut through a parking lot and i'll be there! Yay!

I used to have a black LJ. It had pink on it and i just chose it cause i thought it was pretty... It's green now...
Apr. 20th, 2006 05:52 am (UTC)
I feel a strange sense of satisfaction on your behalf. :)

Apr. 20th, 2006 05:52 am (UTC)
-Bathmat... cursed work logging me out
Apr. 20th, 2006 01:33 pm (UTC)
It used to be black but now I don't look at my own journal styling, or my own entries - they are just rants about how everyone hates me. But they are not angsty entries in the least - they hate me because i'm too knife happy and I can live with that. We should meet up and have a waterfight on a really cold day when you are no longer busy.
Apr. 21st, 2006 08:34 am (UTC)
Ok for starters, Soph, start using your LJ!!!!

Second, can I by any chance have a certain assholes LJ, cos it really would be hysterical to read!!!! It is fun watching people who have hurt you screw themselves up! Live by my motto, "revenge is a dish best served by karma"
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