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Just thought I should update and report that I am no longer the grumpy bitch from hell.

I'm still spending all day watching TV but with less binging! I'm also listening to music and doodling, which I find is pretty good for me, although the mood boost goes away the second I stop.

I'm still totally writers-blocked. rigel_7 says I should try writing bad poetry or dirty limericks! I might give that a try tommorrow.

Unfortunately, I wake up feeling pretty good every day. I mean, not super chipper and fun-loving, but better than when I went to bed. Then, as the day wears on, no matter how I spend the day: getting some exercise, or binging, or being sociable or whatever, however I spend the day, I just end up getting steadily more depressed throughout the day.

That's what the pit is like and sometimes it stays for months. I've just got to wait for it to go away, and try and do the things I'm committed to do, like work and uni and driving lessons. And when I have no commitments... I guess TV and copious amounts of chocolate and cheese and bacon shapes.

I got thinking yesterday though, which I really shouldn't do when I'm depressed. But really, why do I always have to be so bloody optimistic even when I'm in the pit. I'm all "but it'll go away and that's something to look forward too."

Yeah. Until you really think about it, because it always bloody well comes back again, doesn't it?

Stupid pit. Bite me.

Also, go away.


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Jan. 18th, 2006 07:44 am (UTC)
Dirty limericks, you say? That could be most amusing. Maybe some of them might end up at LorFlove, but only if they're written in textspk, I suppose.

*continues to plot*
Jan. 18th, 2006 09:30 am (UTC)
Is it something to do with expectations? Do you expect the day to hold more than it actually does?

I know this is probably totally irrelevant, because you're an entirely different person...but I had a similar thing when I came back from overseas. Everything was just so...mundane. I was used to getting up and going out to see something new and inspiring, and instead, I'd be faced with the same-old crap...I got writer's block when I came back from Britain, REALLY badly.

Random-but-relevant-question: Do you miss NZ? Or travelling?
I guess if the above is relevant at all...it just takes time to get back into the swing of things...persevere...and drink more CHOCCA!
*hands over more chocca*
Jan. 19th, 2006 11:10 pm (UTC)
*Proffers chocca*

I have no advice, but hold out there.
Jan. 20th, 2006 01:50 pm (UTC)
It's The Sophie here- is your e-mail still the one it used to be? If so, you have mail!
Cheeri-fying happy-chemical-inducing lame-but-shiney mail!

P.S. LOOooOooOVE the little SP cast of your LJ!! Your Mum looks EXACLTY like your mum, so much so I cracked up when I saw it!
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